Fast-forward 35 Years…

…And here I am today,in my own little paradise, if you will. Residing in a cute European town called Częstochowa in Poland, pregnant with my second child, with my seven year old daughter and a loving man by my side. My life is purposeful and fulfilling…the significance of which keeps growing and deepening, with every day better than the previous. Naturally, some ups and downs arise, but the goal is to keep going forward. Reflecting on the timeline of my existence, I can’t help but feel a bit overwhelmed, actually. I came to realize something very interesting: I have been through quite a bit and I definitely must write about it…Have been contemplating about it for a while. However, unless I start writing now then I will get deeper and deeper into a state of planning rather than doing…with new memories building up around me like stacks of papers on a work desk.

My mission with this blog is to share cool tales about my life in Ukraine during early childhood (1982-1991), my childhood, teenage years, and early adulthood in Los Angeles, California (1991-2008), my mid to late 20s in New York City, New York (2008-2013), back in Ukraine (2013-2017), and now in Poland. I will document, reflect, and revise these memoirs as I share them with my readers with the idea of one day publishing the complete collection. I will also share events of my present life: personal development growth regarding motherhood/health and fitness/hobbies/hair & beauty tips from a professional stand-point.

Having traveled to many different countries, I made friends from all over the world and created endless memories. During some tough moments I battled depression, self-doubt and many other personal issues within. At times working on these issues with very little hope  and overcoming them what felt like one hour at a time… (I would be lying if I say that I never experience hints of those feelings once in a while, but today I have the tools to immediately shut them down). One of my biggest accomplishments is making a transition from an animal based to a vegetarian, almost vegan diet (with a goal of eventually becoming a raw vegan) gradually over the last 15 years. This is when my life began to make a serious shift in a more meaningful direction. This was a transition from a sedentary, toxic situation to a more active lifestyle based around clean and conscious living. Combined with the help of fitness training I got into a better shape and now physically feel stronger and better than I did in my 20s. Over the years I have also discovered the beauty of detaching from negativity, materialism and all the heaviness physical objects impose on us humans. I let go of the idea of constantly trying to gather and consume – to stop living in some imaginary rat race, in constant competition with my surroundings (essentially with myself) like a hamster on a wheel, and to appreciate simplicity. One can say that I have awakened and started to see the world and overall existence with an open set of eyes and a sober mind. The universe began working with me once I cleared the clutter and confusion. Ironically, I now have more than I could ever ask for when I was actually trying…

Life is not constant. Change occurs every single second. Today my ideas may differ from those I had last week and will definitely differ from those I will have next week. Sometimes I feel like a walking contradiction and I laugh at myself, remembering that life is cool like that-very flexible and forgiving…The main thing is to keep moving and accepting change as it comes at you…and of course enjoying every moment!

I have always been an open book, to those who care to know and ask. I have no secrets, nor shame. I am actually happy to share my stories with others as I gradually document and reflect. If my story resonates with people, or even one person at least, then I have succeeded at life that much more.

Hope you enjoy!

 

 

 

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